Facing the challenges

Dear Friends,

It's been quite a while that I have not updated my blog and I didn't send email to some of you. I was really busy lately with assignments. But finally I ended it on time, Praise God! So now it's revision time as my final exams are coming very soon.

During the past few weeks a lot of things happened to me. More and more I can see the challenges are much more difficult. At first I took it as a great pleasure to face all these challenges but afterwards with stressed and tiredness, I could find no joy in doing so. The more I go, the more I get busier than ever. I always thought that being busy is a good thing to forget our surrondings and to focus on the main objective. I realised a big problem in getting busy. Busyness made me mad, stressed and tired! As a result, I forget about my surronding and I tend to say some words that are not correct... Busyness made my life as a routine! Every morning I wake up, go to class, eat, sleep and most of the time I find no pleasure in reading the Bible. All because my life has become a routine!

Last two weeks, I was really busy with my assignments. I had two assignments that I had to submit on the following week, one individual assignment and the other one a group one. I got so many problems while I was doing my assignments. First I was lacking of inspiration. I didn't know what to write in my assignments. It was also a new to me. The only time I could really work is very late at night, after 1AM. Since I stay in the hostel, many haven't gone to sleep at 12AM. So I could hear some noise of people laughing and talking out loud. At this specific time, I got to work silently where nobody would disturb me. It was so silent and so good to work peacefully. My roommate would never disturb me while I was doing my work, I thank God for him. During this period of time, he would sleep before me, and I almost didn't sleep. I slept only about 2-3hours and go back to work again. It was really tough for me! I thank God also for my brother back in Mauritius. He would be online and chatted with me at the same time as I do my assignment, else believe me, I would be really sleepy! So thanks brother for being by my side to keep me awake! :)

Both assignments was stressful since I didn't know what to write. Although I did some research work in doing my assignments, I didn't know how to put them all together and write it in my own words. I was stressed because the deadline was soon and I was still on the introduction. That time I started only one assignment, the individual one. I praise God because I did really a record of time. I completed my assignment in 3 days, not consecutive ones. As I completed this individual assignments, I had to sms my classmates to tell them we have to meet to do the assignment. Every time as we gather as a group, I'm the only one who did all the research work. They always come and say they will do this part of the work but in the end, I'm the one who did it. I did the most difficult part of the assignment and then I knew that they would be too lazy and would mess up the work, so then I did their part of work. Last time they brought me their part of their work, which finally I've done it, was so messy, lots of plagarism, English vocabulary and gammar not so good! In the end I did 95% of the whole group work. I was quite disappointed because we never gathered up as a group member and discussing for at least 1hr. Most of the time, it's only about 15mins of discussion then they go back in their room. They always come late and I believe that they are very lazy. I was quite angry at that time. Guess what? I did the whole assignment the whole day and night and slept at 3AM, then I gave them the work and to add up things the next morning, which was the due date! I was really happy that I completed all assignments for this semester but I was disappointed of my classmates' lack of effort. I call them classmates because it's very rare that I consider my classmate as a friend, even back to high school. I've been abused so many times of so-called friends in my early schooling. Because of this reason that I have many classmates but little friends in class.

The following week I had a big fight with my friends. They would not talk to me at all for a reason which I didn't know. I was fustrated by this also because these were my closest friends that I had at school. I asked another friend to ask what happened to them and they would not tell her. I was not feeling well also as I started this week, quite a terrible one actually. I won't tell you the whole detail of our quarelling as it's very complicated. It's just something that I didn't do but my friend has taken it as if I've done it. Actually it's a misunderstanding. Yesterday I had to say sorry. This has never happened to me before, where I'm not guilty and I come in as being guilty, not to break up our friendship. It's not easy to be humble but by God's grace, I had to be.

To conclude in here, I would like to say though in times of busyness and tensions, it has been indeed a fruitful one. I've learned so many things through these situations and it made me wiser and to be careful in what I do. Life is a mystery! Many things happened according to our decisions, but these are the things that happened without thinking. Sometimes I wonder why God send those trials and troubles in our life instead of just a simple and pure life with Him. I realised that the simple and pure life with Him, is to be with Him in those times of trials and troubles, and in the end comes out victorious!

God bless you all!
Robin